Have you ever had one of those days? Actually, have you ever had one of those weeks or months? The one where it seems like you are running around with a chicken with its head cut off and accomplishing very little? That is how my life has been for the last 4 or 5 weeks and I am slowly trying to take back control. In this case, slowly would be the understatement of the year. At least, if you are me and you have no patience. If you are someone else, you may think that I’m a bit of an overachiever and really just need a good dose of reality. That may be your version, but I’m going to stick with mine. Not only am I going to stick with it, I’m going to tell you about it. Maybe you have some suggestions and right now I could use them. Maybe you feel the same way and you don’t realize that someone else feels that way too.
I started blogging about 6 months ago and have started to have some success. I really felt like things were going in the right direction. I have three blogs – Mama’s Money Tree, Mommies Vote Too and Yankee Texan Mom. I love them all and was managing to post fairly regularly to each of them. I also had the bright idea that becoming an Independent Tupperware Consultant could me merged with blogging, so I signed up. Then July and August hit and the plan, well it fell apart like a house of cards.
If you have been reading this blog, you may recall that I am a mom and a step mom. Our daughter Gwen is three and is here with us all of the time. My stepchildren – Dillon (16) and Samantha (12) – live with their mothers and are here on particular weekends.holidays. Each July, they spend the month at our house. I love them both dearly, but I would be lying if I said that going from a one child house to a three child house didn’t change things. In fact, for those of you with more than one child, my hat is off to you. I do not know how you do it. Gwen and I had a bit of a routine and I had learned how to blog around it. With three children in the house, it became more difficult. Someone always wanted my attention and, therefore, I did a lot of late night blogging. Well, it pains me to admit it, but I am not as young as I used to be and all of those late nights caught up with me. I tried to ignore the fact that I was sick and, for you reference, I dont’ suggest that. By the end of August, I was at Urgent Care being diagnosed with bronchitis. Antibiotics and cough syrup helped me shake the bronchitis but it has taken weeks to get my energy and strength back. Adding to that, this last fight with the bronchitis wore me down and I quit smoking. (I have not had a cigarette in 17 days.) All in all, it has been weeks since I felt like I had some sort of routine going and, as a result, all of my blogs have suffered.
This past week, I started to see some light at the end of the tunnel and no longer feel like it is an oncoming train. Gwen started preschool this week so I will now have time on Tuesdays and Thursdays to blog, clean the house and/or run errands. I am trying to be realistic about these newly found 10 hours and not try to cram 50 hours worth of “to do” into them. I have also had to realize that when you get this far behind, you can’t get caught up in a day. So, each day I do something around the house and something on the blogs to feel like I am getting caught up. I remind myself that I am only human and that my most important job is being a mom – everything else is secondary.